Just reach home not long ago... Went to Tampines, wanted to catch "Prince Caspain" or "Kung Fu Panda" but sadly I decided not to watch for everyone. Sorry, people... Found it unfair for Win Win to watch it with us again after a couple of hours after he caught the movie even when he's fine with it... To top it up, he still gotta cab home if we watch it...

Don't really know what's going on around me anymore... Or maybe it's me instead of my surrounding that is changing... A few months back, I broke up with my girl-friend when I really can't take all the lies that is always coming from her... Was kinda lost during the first two weeks of break-up but I got myself up again with ESC... Was so focus with ESC that I committed my soul into it to fill up the blank space which surrounds my life... Freedom was kinda found when I don't really need to give a fucking damn concern what's gonna happened if I do this or that... Now I even lost something that is quite important to me which is ESC... Life somehow or rather totally changes... It's felt even worse when I compare it to my break-up... Maybe I've put in too much of my heart into it which cause me to feel the emptiness inside me... Seconds after seconds, minutes after minutes & finally hour after hour I found myself to be awake most of the nights till pre-dawn... I seem to have so much fun around people but I can't really find it now... People are busy with your errands where I found myself to be so free till it's fucking boring... Boredom!!! I really need a outing or something, maybe an outing with myself... Maybe going out alone will help a bit where you fucking choose where to go, what to do & how to go... Feel like just hitting the wall... ARGH!!!!!!!!! IT FREAKING FUCKING BORING!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!! Even the LA Lakers ain't doing things properly... FUCKING HELL!!!!! DO SOMETHING!!!! KOBE PLEASE DO SOMETHING!!!! MAKE A MIRACLE HAPPEN... You got the team this far, you came this far to this point where you're at the grand stage again... Don't' let it slip!!!! At least show me that miracles do happen when I believe...........